Well week four here at the beautiful provo MTC west campus, I've officially been here a month! I cant believe I only have 17 more of these:( it feels like the time has flown! I miss everyone alot, but when you learn as much as I do in one day the days are literally hazey. I want to thank everyone who wrote me letters, emails, pictures, dear elders, cards and sent packages this week. Thanks for not forgetting me yet;) but really, it means so much to me and I am truly honored and blessed to have you all in my life and thinking about me. I love you!!
Wow, I cant even describe how extremely lucky I am to be here at the MTC a this time, it is truly exciting! All of the new mission presidents have been on campus this week for their training with the first presidency and the quorum of the 12! It has been so great. I am also blessed to be here at this specific time because I am convinced that I have the best zone, district, teachers, devotionals, branch presidency and ESPECIALLY companions of all time! I just love all of them!! I feel like such a spiritual infant compared to all them and I learn from their examples, comments, and personal experiences everyday. I'm not even kidding when I say I have the Best of the Best!! Also, I get to be here on the 4th of July, and I'm pretty sure we get to watch the fireworks from stadium of fire that night, it's like a personal goodbye America party for us! Anyways, I've had so, so many spiritual experiences I'd like to share so let me get right ino it.
This sunday we had probably the most inspiring, and hilarious, devo yet! Sister Janice Kapp Perry (an incredible music writer for the church) came to speak to us about music and how we can bring the spirit with something as simple as a primary song. Her and her husband had the whole MTC roaring with laughter as together they shared with us the story of how they met through music, their family song and the spiritual experiences they and their family have all shared through writing and creating music together. At the end we sang the classic duet of "As Sisters in Zion" and "Helamans Army" as missionaries but we used Sister Perrys new sister missionary words that we sing every week in relief society. I cant remember the whole song but this is a part of the last verse and it's my favorite part..."We go forth enlisted with Helamans army, in numbers much greater then ever before. We go to the nations (awkward... i forgot this line), declaring truth is restored!". Then we sang the We are as the armies of helaman part again all together, I have never felt the spirit so strong as I did be a part of that incredible missionary choir.
As if that wasnt enough spiritual uplifting for one day the following tuesday we had another awesome devo. You'll remember I told ya'll the quorum of the 12 and 1st presidency was on campus so we knew it would be someone real special. We were right! We got to hear from Elder D. Todd Christofferson!! Thats our 3rd apostle in a row. AND... there were 5 other apostles sitting on the stand also! Including David A. Bednar, M. Russell Ballard (who we heard from last week :)), Dallin H. Oaks, Neil L. Anderson, and Russell M. Nelson. I felt like I was in Heaven, But literally. Thats probably as close as I've ever been in my life! Elder Christofferson shared a wonderful message about the worth of souls based on the scripture mastery in D and C 18: 10. It was so powerful and I could basically feel waves of the spirit rolling off him. Some of my favorite quotes from his talk were: from C.s. Lewis: "There are no ordinary people", you have never talked to a mere mortal in your life. We spend our days in the presence of people who all have the potential to become Gods and Goddesses'. Another good one was, " Satan tries to convince us that the value of our souls are irreparably damaged and destroyed by sin, this is the greatest lie of all". and last, " The one who demands such high expectations of us will always be the one there to help us attain them". I was so impressed with his talk because he made it a point that he wasnt only talking to us about our future investigators he was sharing that with us. Our souls are precious and of worth, my soul. Christ loves my battered, care worn, and imperfect soul and it is by his goodness, grace and atonement that I can become whole, spotless and perfect before him. And this, this marvelous message of hope and forgiveness, is what I get to share with the beautiful people of my beloved Costa Rica! Could a girl get any more blessed?? you think I would say no. But thats not even the end of it. My Father in Heaven chose to bless me even more this week in private ways.
It might be hard to believe from the way I talk about how wonderful the MTC is, but sometimes thee's hard days, sometimes there's struggles and sometimes you feel a little discouraged. But whenever I have felt this way the Lord has done something, for me personally, to perk my spirit right back up! For example, the other day I was in the gym and I was really tired and sore from the previous day but I knew I needed to work out to feel good the rest of the week. So I got up on my favorite elliptical and started slowly to begin a workout. At one point I looked up and on the exercise bike in front of me someone had left their flash cards on it facing in my direction. The card on top said one simple phrase, in Spanish none the less.. "Valle la Pena". Which means in English, "It will all be worth it." From then on I could do my whole workout focusing on those words and knowing that everything I was doing: in the Gym, at the MTC, on my mission, will all be worth it! A second experience I had was when I was kind of frustrated and walking back to class. I'd had a lot to deal with and was really exhausted and frustrated because I cant speak spanish haha. Well this Elder was walking behind me and reading a letter out loud and this is what I heard "Now remember, you are on the Lords Errand. It's not about you, it's about him. But, because you are on his Errand you are Entitled to his help". I realized hey, I'm not here alone. I am entitled to His help!! I also remembered sister Perry reminding us of a line from one of her songs " Pray, he is there. Speak, he is listening. You ARE his child. His love, now surrounds you". So I said a pathetic little prayer and I was able to enjoy the rest of my day and learn many important things! This is how I know the Lord loves and cares for me. He knows my needs before I do and places something in my path to help me overcome every trial I face.
I'd like to just thank everyone really quick for the role you've had in my life up until this point. Each person who is reading this has helped me and given me experience to be who I am. Everyday when we're teaching our investigators I share a story or a principle or a quote or a memory that I have learned from you!! Thank you for helping me and assisting me in achieving the Lords Work and Glory: To Bring to pass the immortality and Eternal Life of man. Because this is truly what It's all about. There is no greater work to be doing.
Also, I feel an urgent need to thank everyone who is continually blessing the lives of my dear, dear family while I'm here, having the time of my life! Thank you for taking care of them. Thank you for your friendships, your service projects your thoughtful prayers. The Kugath family is so ridiculously blessed by their ward, neighbors, friends, relatives and basically everyone who meets them. I especially am aware and grateful to you. The Lord sees your service and love to my family and he will help me to pay you back for it. Every time my mom sends me a letter she relates to me another miracle that has happened in their lives that has been administered by Heavenly Father through you!! From the bottom of my Heart, Thank You and may God bless you for blessing us.
Elder Christofferson left us with this promise, " Your faith in God can only be matched by his faith in you".... But I think you guys come pretty close;) Thank you for having faith in me! I wont let you down!! You're always in my prayers!
All My Love,